My Wish Right Now

while i was walking home,
i looked at the sky.
the sky is cloud-free.
yes, it is!
i could see the stars clearly,
shining so freely and brightly.
the moon is almost full in shape.

wow! i miss those star gazing moments...
at dawn with my father way back my province days...
at night with my neighbors during blackouts,
still way back province nights...
at the roof of my neighbor during college days...
at the roof of the house where i'm at now,
that was when i was still new here...
at the beach with my officemates,
that was during the christmas party two years ago,
while we're having our midnight swimming...
at hilltop celebrating pia's birthday until 12 midnight...
oh! how could i forget those star gazing moments!
waiting and counting falling stars...

how i wish i could just rush at hilltop right now,
of course with friends talking about nonsense...
or talk about serious thing in life.

that's my wish right now...

If Only

It's too late...
Did it ever happen to you?

The after realizing the chances wasted,
the words "IF ONLY" come out...
And there's no more second chances.
I'm pretty sure it happened to you...

I have just watched this movie, IF ONLY...
A man who loves his woman but he's too busy
that he couldn't find time to show it.

When one day, his woman got involved in a terrible accident and died...
Fate miraculously intervened and gave the man a second chance...

I have tons of IF ONLYs in my entire life...
It's like I can't get over from something or someone...
Which leaves me the questions of What Ifs...

If that happens to you, what would you do?
If you're given second chances,
What will you do?

For some years ago until now,
I take most of the opportunities the world has offered me...
I appreciate everything I have...
I give time to anyone who asks for my time...
I appreciate every single second, every minute, every day...
Whether alone or with someone...
When I have nothing to do,
I give myself time walking alone somewhere,
enjoying every happenings within the surroundings...

Life is short...
We don't know if there'd be second chances...
Enjoy every minute of it...
Grab every opportunity of second chances...
For when death takes place,
There'd be no more chances for IF ONLYs....

If today is your last day to live, how will you spend it?

It Just Happened

i was waiting for my turn to throw the balls at a duck pin tourney...
i was just staring at the "not so shiny" bowling lane...
thoughts empty, eyes barely blink, body barely move...

when suddenly...

at a blink of my eyes i saw this guy...
tall, dark and i don't know if he's really handsome...
i think he's in mid-30s but he looks mature...
hah! i caught myself staring at him...
he's like throwing the balls in a slow motion...

and i told myself - it's him...
it's like him that i wanted...
i don't know if i would ever see him again...
but i have already figured out clearly who I wanted...
not specific but at least i know that i wanted someone like him...
i don't know him but i like the way he carries himself...

that kind of guy will really change me for sure...
oh, i might just be dreaming...
maybe i'm just hungry...
i would better hit the sheets now...
and dream of my guy... hahahaha

i just saw him... it just happened...

good morning!