here comes my early morning thoughts.... again...
it's been a while since i wrote a note...
i remembered the last time i wrote a note...
the "early morning thought..."
that was something that described my fear...
and at the same time, asked myself so many questions....
i am an insomniac... at different times...
it could either be before sleep, after sleep...
or when i sleep early, i have this insomnia between sleeps..
i slept early because i have this unusual headache...
look at me now... i am wide awake...
i need only need 3-5 hours of sleep and i'm good...
and now i am thinking....
i have asked this question to myself before...
"do i know myself better?"
and i guess i have to list a few that i could mention...
1) I VALUE TIME.
time is very important to me..
i value other people's time as well as mine.
i am almost always on time in my appointments...
my body clock is helping me...
i wake up earlier than my alarm clock... :)
if ever i will be late, i give early notice...
2) I HAVE MORE TIME AT WORK/ WITH FRIENDS/ALONE
THAN MY FAMILY.
yes, i know i should do the opposite.
but our situation is really hard...
my parents are in the province...
i live with my siblings but we use time differently...
i could only give my full time to my family when i'm at the province..
or perhaps on special occasions....
3) I WATCH MOVIE ALONE.
weird it may be, but yes i watch movie alone... most of the time...
sometimes because i want to give time alone with myself and for myself...
and because i know friends can't go with me all the time...
they have their life... i am just a tiny part of it...
4) I AM NOT A VILLAGE CHIEFTAIN'S DAUGHTER.
i remembered i was called by one of my superiors at work...
he asked me who i really am...
i was confused about his broad question
i answered him that "i am just who i am, sir"...
then he asked me if i am a village chieftain's daughter...
and i said no ... and discovered someone's kidded him...
5) I DON'T GO TO MASS REGULARLY BUT I AM A BELIEVER OF GOD.
i don't want to stress things out here..
because i know, as God believer, i should hear mass regularly...
and i don't go with people who are non-believers of God...
6) I SLEEP ONLY 3-5 HOURS A DAY.
my body clock is sensitive and active...
if i sleep early, i wake up early...
just like last night, i sleep at almost 9:00pm..
i woke up before 2:00am this morning...
i did some stuffs before writing this note...
and still here i am typing... :)
7) I CAN EASILY GET ALONG/MAKE FRIENDS WITH PEOPLE.
it all started during my sophomore in high school..
i was sent to a conference in manila with other 3 delegates..
i have made friends with students from different schools in the Phils.
until now, i still have communications with some of them...
one has even become the wife of someone who's working with me in same company...
8) I VALUE PEOPLE BUT I LOVE FREEDOM.
i remember i have few people i valued the most years back...
i always hang out with them...
i didn't realize my world was already confined to them...
i could no longer extend my network of people...
i have struggled so much at those times...
that i have to choose between freedom and those valued people...
i ended up choosing freedom...
i value friends and people
but please allow me to extend my network of friends...
9) I VALUE MY FAMILY'S TRUST.
i know my parents as well as my siblings trust me ...
that is why i can do everything i wan to do...
i don't want to fail them...
i don't want to break their trust in me..
the trust i had built since childhood...
10) I WAS WEIRD AND I DON'T KNOW IF I AM STILL.
i was once a loner...
someone with low self-esteem...
i don't know if it's weird but for me, it is...
i am always alone...
far from the crowd...
when i want to give myself a break and get some fresh air,
or when i am sad and wanted to weep,
i visit my grandparents' wake,
stay there for a while and read books...
i guess you have known me a little better now... ;)
that's all for now..
oooppppssss... one last thing...
11) I LOVE PHOTOGRAPHY.
i started eying on good photos 2 years ago...
then i craved to produce good photos myself...
that is why i am into photography this time...
later on realizing that it has helped me a lot...
in so many ways...
it boost up my self confidence,
gave me tons of friends (online & real)..
showcases my capabilities to discover the artist in me..
finally, i'm done hehehehe... but there are more to know
about me...
come and get me... LMAO ..... ;-)
